9:55 PM
June 04, 2009
why does holi doesn seem like holi? it's seems boring in all the way. watch tv, online,reading novel revision and many more.. nothing new seems that coming for every of my holi.. all the things also the same. go trip also the same. not cameron then genting if not genting then penang... so boring la! even my mama also say the same thing but i had actually fed up and i started to hate holi trip since i was young.damn hate it. so bored!actually going trip with parents are damn boring dun even have freedom to go anywhere bt if gt fren then good le..or else i darn boring so whenever i go i must take chance to bring autumn go le..at least a bit freedom.btw, i m very bad luck in this holi lo..i keep on get injured. not my hand then my leg. wtf? that day went down to take something then injured my leg then yesterday clear my cupboard also injured my leg then yesterday when i wake up sprink my ankle.today lagi teruk.more painful than yesterday.damn pain even walk down from stairs also like falling down jus i force myself to walk faster.. must i be that bad luck. malang bertimpal-timpal as wht suguz or the malays said malang tidak berbau.which means no one will know if there is something bad going to happen on u. yesterday i dream something bad as i feel.i dreamed that i transfer to kepong scool i cried and cried this seems real le.. but when i told mama guess wht she said??? i don wan to go on..
ever since i know that they care about me but this is not the way. do not compare me with the others. all my cousins got so many problem as i see that theirs are worser than mine but it seem that many people put too high hope on me but wht must me? don put too high hope on me as i feel that very pressure. u guys think that i m not good enough but can u tell me wht had when wrong but when i ask ppl they could not say out. pls stop faking in from of me! u don think that the way u ask i donno wht u mean la. pls don use me to compare with others. i admit that i sometimes might not be good but can u at least give me some spaces.. i need it i really need.u jus ask one ques such as: do u wan to be like them? i can feel it from the first time until now.. i could not say no coz u had put me too high up.. the way is too high. do u understand? seriously i really rather be other ppl than be myself. i m jeatlous about other ppl as the way u treat them u know how to respect them wht about me?? pls no more to compare me against each other i m not that perfect i know but at least i know wht was rite and wht was my wrong.i had enough or i get fed up!
anyway i hope to go 1u to see linda chung and raymond lam. there is a but in between mayb not success lo..
i lurve them lo.. pls let me go le... i m their fans!!
later got piano trial exam some more my god!!!!!!!!!
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