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9:45 PM
April 16, 2011 Yes. I love you.
He has no rights to threatened me to talk to guys or dating with them. I'm seriously 18 now. An adult.Stop making me feeling that I'm still a kid.Well, first of all I do love him but I really do now know how to express my feelings now. I teared the whole morning. Why? Cause. I loved him too much. And guess what? I was busted yesterday. My dad nearly know our relationship. He saw I was online-ing. He saw that I was chatting with someone. He asked chatting with boy huh? Show me the conversations. I said no cause it's something privacy and i'm playing with my friend. Then he walked away with a sentence of don fool around. He sounds serious. Now, I'm shivering. I'm thinking what will happen if he knows our relationship? Will he ask me to break up with him? I do not want to think about this but I cannot control myself of not to think a bout it. The reason is because I know him very well. He might do that. Baby, I'm really sorry if I really need to to that. I'm in a big fear now. Even you text me I also think twice to reply your message. In the end I did not take my phone to reply cause I'm really no mood to reply. Plus, I do not know what should I reply. I stared at Bibie for a moment then tears started to flow to my cheeks. I really love you and I really do not want to give up but those fear.. My brain keeps me thinking of: Will we break up? How much it will hurt you and me? What will happen to us after that? I know you will stalk at my blog. I can only type on blog cause I'm not brave enough to tell you directly. Sorry, if this post do make you no mood. I teared during writing this freaking post. I'm sorry but I really really loves you. |
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