Their wedding was so grand!

Got Artist , famous people and etc were there too.

I saw he invited an orphan too.

Wonderful wedding.

Catherine was so pretty!!

Just second last day in my office.

Gotta miss the people there.

Especially my colleague who sits next to me.- Jasmine

Miss those things that happen in office.

There are certain of weird people appeared in the office.

Hehe XP I didn't meant it but seriously weird.

Well, today I went to Pavilion alone.

Such a very nice moment.

*******

When we sick we need to drink water.

Need to sleep well too.

Now, I'm facing flu.

A heavy flu plus headache.

Sinus is already enough horrible.

Now I've got flu.

Hope it will be better soon.

Ciao~

Next Tuesday is my last day and the next day is his orientation day.

It'd make me to become happy.

I will get my salary soon and wanna buy Xperia X8.

My dream come true.

May coming, I will be free.

I will learn make up soon.

I must pick up everything in May before my college starts.

My "ex-neighbour" come to my house to make some special dinner for us.

Fun learning cooking from her.

She teach me to cook japanese Udon.

Well, it really taste like those in Japanese restaurant.

It's yummy.

Da-Da-Da-Da!

Look! It's my new haircut!

I know.

I looks like doll more than anything.

Well, one good thing is my skin fair jor!

Hahaha!!!!!

Rather happy.

Just a brief about today.

I wonder why?

Yesterday I had a very weird dream.

I dreamt a snake in my room.

I caught it and put it into a plastic bag and it glide out of the plastic bag.

It'd be rather ridiculous that I put it into a plastic BAG?!

Worst. Then my daddy help me to put into the plastic bag again. That's a CRAZY dream.

It'd get me insane. Until I cried in the dream.

At first I thought it was a dream but suddenly I felt hard to breathe.

Then, I awakened. I realize that I'm really crying.

Gossshh!! Now I wondered why I cried till so terrible.

Perhaps I'm born to be a cry baby. Too emotional.

I hate sitting without moving for several hours.

Rather boring!

I'd admit that I "curi tulang" for a while.

Means I keep on go toilet (cause aircond too cold) and go make some tea.

I went to read my novel and also play sudoku when finish my work.

Lunch time was best for today.

I went to explore KL myself.

Good still.

Went to shop shop a while after lunch.

Guess what?

I bought a necklace!

I'd loved it.

My lunch time was wonderful because I went alone.

I love going places alone.

No waiting.

No chatting something out of my range.

This is because my colleague all I also not familiar with.

So called a day. I'm counting down or so called looking forward to the end of my contract with this company. After that I don wanna work anymore. Unless there's something that I'm interested.

Nights~

When my mood no good then I'll surely talk less.

That's why my neighbour talk to me I also give less response.

Today office work was nothing at all.

So I can listen to songs and read novel.

However, I just stare on my novel book for quite sometime then only I continue reading.

Now. It goes better and better than yesterday and this morning even though I teared.

Well, now just got mood to learn back my japanese language.

Nights! See you tomorrow.

Boring.

I hate office life for once again.

Now my desire to buy Xperia is high.

Going to buy it soon.

Well, first of all I do love him but I really do now know how to express my feelings now.

I teared the whole morning. Why?

Cause. I loved him too much.

And guess what?

I was busted yesterday.

My dad nearly know our relationship.

He saw I was online-ing.

He saw that I was chatting with someone.

He asked chatting with boy huh? Show me the conversations.

I said no cause it's something privacy and i'm playing with my friend.

Then he walked away with a sentence of don fool around.

He sounds serious.

Now, I'm shivering.

I'm thinking what will happen if he knows our relationship?

Will he ask me to break up with him?

I do not want to think about this but I cannot control myself of not to think a bout it.

The reason is because I know him very well.

He might do that.

Baby, I'm really sorry if I really need to to that.

I'm in a big fear now.

Even you text me I also think twice to reply your message.

In the end I did not take my phone to reply cause I'm really no mood to reply.

Plus, I do not know what should I reply.

I stared at Bibie for a moment then tears started to flow to my cheeks.

I really love you and I really do not want to give up but those fear..

My brain keeps me thinking of:

Will we break up?

How much it will hurt you and me?

What will happen to us after that?

I know you will stalk at my blog. I can only type on blog cause I'm not brave enough to tell you directly. Sorry, if this post do make you no mood.

I teared during writing this freaking post.

I'm sorry but I really really loves you.

He talks about how cheap we all girls are in order to get out license.

Shitttt!!!!!!
I feel like feed him rubbish so that he cannot talk so much rubbish!!!!

He talks for an hours for those craps then only start the class.

HE showed the photos of those human beings who get an accident.

Some can see their intestines, or the head and hands were off from the body.

EWWWW!!!

Well, do u know how long this class ends?

2 hours. The paper wrote that we have 6 hours of amali but he let us balik early.

He is a big big pig!

Well, that's better cause no need to listen to his rubbish.

Plus that lousy classroom was so freaking lousy!!!!

HOT like shit.

Alright, it's over.

Now waiting for my L license. YAY!

Nearly argue with him.

Maybe I'm too "small gas" or sensitive.

Yet, I angry also he didn't realize.

Sorry, my baby.

I didn't realize that you're not in mood.

I still "fa ni pi qi".

Sorry.

Tomorrow gotta go for amali.

6 HRS le?! Fine, be patient.

Better than sitting at the office whole day.

Got my favourite piano class.

Teacher praised that I played piano with full of feelings today.

Cause I'm hyper when Friday comes.

The Friday for me means Free-Day.

I thought it was Friday so I thought I have piano class.

My neighbour laughed at me cause I brought my piano bag.

She says: Why do u bring your piano bag today?

I says: Today Friday mah?

She says: (laughs) Silly, today is Thursday. You wished tomorrow is holiday is it?

What a BIG JOKE?

However, this does not only happen on me but happen to my brother and "him" too.

I wanted Friday so much.

Why not today is Friday?

If today is Friday then I've got piano class :D

If today is Friday then I can enjoy.

Just if.

However Friday coming lo~

P.S. Went to Pavillion for lunch today. :)

Just a SPM leaver. 17 ++ yrs old.

ZZZzzzzzZZ...

Hard to communicate sometimes but just listen to their conversations.

Manager: Jasmine(my colleague), get something for Himmiko to do. She is waiting eagerly.

P.S. I'm playing with my panda key chain.

Just the starting of the day which is at 4 o'clock. ^^

At night, got scolded while having dinner.

Perhaps I'm too playful recently.

I should have stop fooling around and take things serious.

However, it was just a joke.

Wtf? I cannot joke around?

I just play for a few seconds then you pissed off? WTF?

I lagi pissed of okay?

A sentence that kills me is :

Wei, I've got pissed off with your fooling around attitude.

Then he slot in to scold again. What the crap is this?!

I'm freaking tired.

I wanna close my mouth and stop talking.

I'm tired. Don't nag at me anymore.

I'm eighteen. An adult.

Sorry, my post did hurts people eyes when I'm so **** pissed off.

Wake up at 6.

Brush teeth and take breakfast.

Follow my neighbour's car to work.

Firstly, I follow her to put her kids at primary school.

Then go to market to buy breakfast.

7.30 go to office.

Reach at around 8.

Work>Work>Work

12.30> lunch break till 1.30

5.15 pm balik kampung but sometimes O.T.

Tired..ZZzzzzZZZ

People keep on ask me I tired a not?

ME: No(acually freaking tired)

haha!

Back to what happen today..

Sad. Cause got scolded by random people.

Just know how to blame me. Fine.

I wonder why I nearly teared just now. It's suppose to be nothing to tear about.

Another happy thing is I've passed my undang test! FReak!

I never thought that I'll pass cause a lot of ques do before this I tend to do it wrongly.

Guess what? It's 44/50(lulus)

Ciao! P.S.Someone is nagging me to sleep.

I've gotta wait till 3rd of may.

Damn long.

Just got a big trouble from parents.

I seriously feels depressed.

It's all planned by someone.

Ruins my life with that..

I've no choice.

Not just realise. It's realise for a long long time.

Just that I do not have my chance to choose.

Broke my heart and so on.

I just wanna take Interior Designer (ID).

Damn!!

Just forget it.

I can't believe that sit for several hours also can make me tired.

I need massage. LOL.

This is my new life. Torturing.

Feeling nervous before going to office.

Luckily my colleague is kind and friendly or else I've gotta feel very uncomfortable.

First day of work I learnt something is wait.

Patience.

I waited 1 hr plus for the HR to serve me.

Waited another 2 hrs ++ for the people to fix my computer.

Just the word wait.

Had lunchie with my colleague.

She belanja me. Pai seh~ :)

So called a day.

I do not know what I'm suppose to do but just one word I knw how to to do which is nervous!

Shitt!!

I was thinking of :

What should I wear?

Which shoe I should wear?

What bag to take?

What to bring? stationeries?

What will happen tomorrow?

How's my colleague?Friendly?

Awww!!! I worried too much maybe.

Anyway wish me luck!

Today morning some more struggle with my dad.

Said that I don wanna work for him cause I don wan to make myself unhappy again.

I had been two years plus he upset me for all the time.

Cried like no body business.

Tears flows like rain.

But just a sentence: what to do he's my dad?

Trying to think of running away from the house? wtf?

Impossible. I won't do that if I had such a chance.

Then the god suddenly seems like heard my thoughts and gave me the job.

Now, I'm so nervous.

I wonder what should I wear?

What should I bring?

How are the people there?

What should I do there?

Lots of wonders.

Thanks for the chance.

Thanks for my precious gave me supports.

Thanks for everything.